What's in a name?

When I got married I happily took on my husband's last name. I loved being a "Mrs." and proudly placed it before my name whenever I had the option. Now I realize that soon I will no longer be Mrs. Solt. I am not quite sure how I feel about that. I am sure there is a deeper issue here associated with the fact that I gave up my maiden name in the first place; but it feels unfair that I have to give up my name and my husband doesn't. I think I feel more strongly about this because of Noah. Resuming my maiden name will mean that we will no longer carry that bond. I will be a Massaro and he will be a Solt. I know that speaks nothing of our actual bond but it still feels important nonetheless. We will no longer be The Solt Family. I just think that is sad.

Update

Update to the Update....

After posting this announcement it was quickly realized that it was a mistake. We did get married for a reason but I am not sure if we will ever know if it was a good reason. Love is blind; it's also blinding sometimes. Mike and I love eachother. But we don't make eachother happy. I don't think we ever did. That is not a fun thing to admit but it's the truth. If it seems like I don't have all the answers well I actually don't have any of the answers! I just keep plugging away hoping I will get things right eventually. So the journey to a new normal continues....

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After a lot of talking and a couple of extremely stressful weeks, Mike and I have decided to cancel our seperation. We did get married quickly. It probably was too quick. But that will never change the fact that we did get married for a reason.

We would like to be healthier physically, emotionally, & financially. We have a lot of work to do but we are now one step closer to reaching those goals together.

Hopefully one day this will just have a bump in the road along our journey. For now we are going to take it one day at a time. And just for the record this is one decision that was not made for love of the boy. This one was made "all because two people fell in love".

There just may be a happy ending to our love story after all...